It Seems to Work

I think putting my thoughts down on "paper" (as it were) have really opened up the emotional floodgates. It was a tought night and morning for me today - a million thoughts and memories of Cassie came rushing back. It was, at the same time, happy - sad - wishful - tragic - heartbreaking. This photo was taken almost exatly one year ago today on 6/27/04. Oh, how she loved her food - even if she couldn't eat it.

An Introduction

Cassandra Anne Akers was born the afternoon of Saturday August 17th 2003 in Fairfax, Virginia. She was the second daugter of myself and my wife Daria, and sister to then 18-month old Lesley Kennedy. Cassandra died early Wednesday morning April 6, 2005 after being in a coma for 8 days following surgery. The operation was routine, something went wrong, and Cassie never woke up. To this day we still don't know what happened, what went wrong, or where to go from here. This blog is my attempt at putting some of my thoughts and feelings to words to help me with my greiving process. I also hope that someone out there will read this and find something that helps them, too.

This first entry is pretty emotional - it's tough to type through your tears - so let me just say that I miss my precious little girl so very very much and there isn't a day, and hour, a minute that doesn't go by that I don't think about her silly smile, big beautiful eyes, and wish she was still here with me.