4 Months

Cassandra died 4 months ago today.


As I'm sure you're wondering, the answer is a resounding NO, things aren't any easier or any better. Parents who have gone through the loss of a child assure me that it will get less bad someday. However, I keep thinking that no matter what happens and no matter how severely all of our lives take a turn for the better, it doesn't matter. We could win the lottery, the Cubs win the World Series, Lesley's CP could disappear, Bush get impeached and thrown in jail, discover the cure for cancer, and none of it would matter quite as much because Cassie isn't here to share it with us anymore. It's always going to suck. I'm pissed off and I'm sad and I know I always will be.